E has the most kissable face in Little Rock! He is so precious and is such a joy. Not only does he come out of his nursery classroom three times a week covered in lip prints, but now even a sales clerk at Target is kissing him! Lest you think I let just anyone put there lips on my boy, she’s not a ‘stranger’, she’s kept up with me and my babies for years…but I have to say this is the first one she has ever kissed!
Several years ago when our foster son Kenny was with us for 6 months, I calculated how many kisses I would need to give him for him to have one every day until he turned 18. Then, I went about trying to give him that many kisses! Not that it meant anything to him, but it made me feel better.
Now, I’m faced with the gripping thought of E leaving me as well and I’m challenged by the questions that always come during these difficult times-the “what if’s”. What if he does leave? What if it is the wrong decision? What if there is no justice for this child I love with all my heart? Will he wonder where we all are? What impact will this move make on his development? Will he have the opportunity to be all that God wants him to be?…the list is endless.
Then I remember the poignant and insightful scripture that says “don’t worry about tomorrow…today has enough trouble of its own!” and I’m thrust back into reality. The reality is that I AM this precious child’s mother today….and I’m gonna make the choice to relish the time I have to mother (and kiss on) the most kissable face in Little Rock!